direction

the line or course on which something is moving or is aimed to move or along which something is pointing or facing

and:
a guiding, governing, or motivating purpose

I've gone back and forth over the past year as to whether or not to even keep this space going. Only recently did I really start to even question why I still kept this space open at all to anyone but my own two eyes.

The original purpose of my blog was to keep a record of what goes on in our daily lives over here. It was more a means of scrapbooking fodder than anything else. I wanted a place to record memories and our comings and goings. Share them with others. And every now and again something crafty.

A few weeks ago I pulled the plug on the whole blog for a few days. Shut the whole thing down. I was feeling exposed and vulnerable. I wasn't sure why I even had this space here anymore.
I had been praying about what God wanted me to do here. Do I keep this going? Am I doing this for others? Myself? Him? Maybe all of the above most likely.

I wanted to find my voice again. I wanted Him to tell me where to go and what to say. I wanted to figure out my new computer and how the whole stinkin iPhoto thing works and be able to blog a bit more easily. See, how my brain works: deep then not so deep all within seconds of one another.

Immediately after I changed all my privacy settings, something happened, I received an email from a reader who wasn't sure how to post here but thought she'd send along some thoughts on recipes of mine that she's tried or wanted to over at Crafty's Cafe, my recipe blog. She said she was having a hard time finding my blog and liked reading about things and she was just so kind to me at a time when I really needed a bit of extra kindness. Her email reminded me of why I was here, why I kept this space in the first place and what I needed to do.

And then Courtney mentioned this idea of using a word prompt each month to get us all going and blogging more regularly.
I was in. I wanted to focus on the word of the month and share something thoughtful. But then I procrastinated, even after mulling over the month's word all weekend long! Now here I am, on the day of the posting, sitting in bed on the blogger app (which is actually pretty darn awesome, btw) trying to get all he thoughts out of head and into the page. Maybe your life is a little crazy and hectic and you do lots of things at the eleventh hour, too?


I've wanted more direction here.
I've been praying for it and I actually think I've found something.
I put those two definitions at the top of the post defining direction and they both fit for me.

I know in my heart of hearts what my motivating purpose is and I hope to share that with you more. I'm on a journey just like everyone else.
I lose my way.
I find my way again.
I make mistakes. Lots.
Sometimes, I get something right.

But in this year of 2013, I'm taking pause a little more and surveying the scene. I hate how much I miss out on the beautiful daily stuff. The ordinary extraordinary. Those are the moments that shape me. That shape my family. And I'm pausing to look at them more closely.

Way back in the early days of parenting, I read a book with a saying I will never forget and that has come back to me over and over again: start as you mean to go on, a powerful little statement that I always fall back upon.
So, I'm moving back in the direction of where this space used to be but yet I'm moving forward, too, as I've certainly changed since the days of my first posts. I hope you'll check in with me as I journey along in this new direction.

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